Voices in my head
I can hear them all the time
whisper that I’m a bad man.
Down on my knees
I’m begging for mercy.
Is that what you wanted?
You don’t understand anything.
I did it because I wanted to
I wanted to be worthy of you.
But you still don’t understand.
I told you many times
that I loved you.
You thought it was a joke
You thought it was a fad
You thought it was a lie
Do you believe me now?
Will you let me love you
be close to you
even if you don’t want it.
Please tell me
that you’ve forgiven me
that you need me
that I deserve it.

© W. Donovan

I regret I wasn’t listening
to you more carefully
Before
I ignored you
talked to you
but didn’t listen.
I’m sorry.
I can imagine
how you might’ve felt.
I know I was blind
hadn’t seen the signs.
I know I was deaf
I hadn’t heard your voice.
I’m sorry, I didn’t know.
I wish I listened.
Now I can’t speak to anyone
without seeing your face
without hearing your voice
without imagining our conversations.
God, I miss it so much
our talks.
I’m sorry I wasn’t listening.
I didn’t understand it
Probably that’s why you left.
Now I try to remember
every detail from our talks.
Now I want to ask you questions
I didn’t ask when I had a chance.
God, I wish I was listening.
I’m sorry, I didn’t know
you were my soulmate.

© W. Donovan

It’s silent around me now.
Only the cool wind rustles among the trees.
There’s nothing between us anymore
except the moonlight on the sky.
No touch, no look
no breathing, no trembling of the heart.
It’s too late for that.
You know that we couldn’t do it.

now only stars
shine for us
only there we can be
alone
in the arms of love
together till the end

It’s silent, I’m alone
The hand touches the other hand
The eyes meet in a glance
Hearts play a common rhythm
Just in my mind because you’re not here.
You know that I couldn’t tell you
The moment escaped somewhere
We will never be together.

© W. Donovan