Hi lovely people.
Have you ever read a fairytale where a princess becomes a maid? No? That’s because there isn’t one.
Usually, it’s the other way round, right? Poor girl finding a prince, lost princess finding her family, princess finding her purpose, queen finding her freedom. All of these stories have happy endings, there’s no tales about girls who lose everything, never getting anything instead. Why? Because no one wants to read about unhappy endings.
I put on a dress and I pretend to be a lady. I talk like a lady. I walk like a lady. I smile like a lady. But all I want to do is scream and dance on the streets of my imagination.
Is that what society wants me to believe in?
They say that life writes best scenarios. I disagree. Because if that was true no one would write stories. Any stories.
Life doesn’t write anything. It just sits on your chair passing by, waiting for you to die. Life doesn’t care. If you stand still, you’re going to stay still.
Do you believe in fate? In an invisible force that takes you to the path where you belong. It doesn’t matter what decision you make, doesn’t matter where you go, doesn’t matter what people you meet… You’re always going to end up in the place where the universe assigned you to.
That makes a lot of sense for me right now. And knowing that is devastating and relieving at the same time. Why should I try if my trying doesn’t bring me the desired outcome? Why should I put all my energy in something that is not meant for me? I only caused myself pain and now everything hurts me inside.
Someone who was born in dirt will always end up in dirt. I cannot fool my destiny. I cannot fool myself.
Life doesn’t have a happy ending. No one truly cares about you, and in the end you die anyway.
© W. Donovan