I have enough of this silence
Silence around me
and voices in my head.
You’re still surprised
that I don’t say anything.
You would also be silent,
if you kept telling
your thoughts to be quiet.
It’s so exhausting, that
saying words is a torment.
They disappear behind a haze.
© W. Donovan
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Weronika Donovan is an amateur writer and photographer. She's an artistic soul. She was born in Poland, where she was brought up and educated. Her adventure with writing began in her late teens, but she started blogging only ten years later. Her poetry has grown since that time. She started to use words more consciously. She defined the journey of her life, portraying it in four volumes of poetry. First of them called 'Ghosts' was self-published in 2019.
Weronika is a loner. She likes wandering to interesting places, always choosing her own path.
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Painted Poems 
I know this feeling – cotton wool inside your head, damping everything you want to say?
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Exactly. And you cannot get through it.
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In my experience that fog is a trapped emotion. Mine’s anger and the fog is the result of suppressing it.
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Hm, that’s an interesting point of view. Considering the fact that we shouldn’t suppress our emotions, do you think the silence is bad?
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Not necessarily. For me the silence isn’t the problem (assuming what I’ve surmised is correct); the problem is that the silence (and the accompanying fog) has become my only possible response to my anger.
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I don’t think the silence is a problem, either. I like it most of the time… Have you tried to calm the anger down somehow? Meditation, music, walks?
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Yes, I do a lot of those. I used to teach yoga. I think the key (for me) is to learn to express my anger appropriately – at the moment the “silence” is my habitual pushing it down so hard that even I’m unaware of what’s going on.
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