22 Diaries. Story six

What people in your life really mean to you?

your family, your friends, your colleagues

Do you even have any friends?

Friends who never let go and never let you feel the cold. Friends whom you feel safe with. Friends whom you feel free with.

content isn’t enough

They talk to you through the clouds, not through the metal that makes them blind.

I cannot recall.

But I exactly remember the day everything ended. I remember how it made me feel.

How can I say a word now? When all you want me to be is a silent machine of your imagination.

You told me once to always say how I’m feeling. My truths are blunt, though.

Sorry should I feel…
or say.

However, I’m not the one whose words float in the air.

Careless. Like the soul that never found its home.

Understanding. It’s what you expect, giving a shake of your hand in exchange.

and that’s all

Everything we’ve had. Everything we’ve built. There’s no room for it anymore. Even on the dusty shelf of the forgotten.

Shall I stay put, even though the words were never said. But the leaves that fell from the trees cannot grow back on them.

Being still in your arms, I should feel love, happiness and safety. But all I feel is nothing.

Splinters of the shallow and mute guard that are still stuck in my skin.

They will remain only splinters.

and that’s all

© W. Donovan

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