The other day I watched a movie called ‘The Milk of Sorrow’. Sad and dramatic as it was, it somehow explained something that was happening in my life.
Even though my mother told me that she wanted to have another baby [me], I found it hard to believe that this was true. Feeling, what I’ve been feeling for all those years, I still hardly believe it.
I’ve always felt unwanted.
It didn’t matter what people said about me. Good daughter, loyal friend, diligent student. I’ve always felt like I wasn’t supposed to be here. Being around all those happy people, brought me down even more. To the point where the only thing I want to do is to pick flowers in heaven.
Tell me, Mother.
Bitter have I become, drinking the milk of sorrow.
Tell me, Mother.

I love this 🖤🖤
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I just found out i wasnt welcomed by my Dad.. he pretty much ignored me and never protected me from Mum.. I think if you are unwanted as a baby you feel it.. its painful to face it but you need to know how beloved you are as a spirit and person even if the way you came to be was not nurturing.. for what it is worth those are my thoughts..
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I’m really sorry to hear that 😦 I think some people shouldn’t have children.
Everyday I’m telling myself that I have worth as human but it’s not always working.
Thank you for your comment. Take care!
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It my thoughts exactly.,. I decided never to have kids as I knew how much they needed to be given and at the stages I might have been able to, I knew I was not ready.. but we must not allow others to dictate our value…
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tell me about it!
i was an accident
mom was 48 dad 63
and i did not want my sons
so i struggle to tolerate
and love my younger
son who will be 30
he would agree with you too
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Yeah, it’s hard to cope with it.
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so too son tom. onions on his double quarter pounder.
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I can relate to this piece, Weronika.
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I’m really sorry you go through it…
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That was my experience growing up but I’ve reclaimed my worth, thankfully. 🙂
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